Tuesday, September 29, 2009

Baby Fetty



So, we got our ultrasound yesterday and it was pretty exciting. The first image that the tech showed us was really cool because it was a side view. We could see it kicking and moving around. It looked a lot cuter from that angle than the pic that is posted here. She didn't give me a copy of that picture. The whole process took over an hour to do and seemed pretty detailed. She was taking pictures of all of the babies organs and body parts and measuring everything. So, at the end, the tech was looking for the gender and she said that she was looking for the hamburger because she thought it was a girl. I guess that is what they describe a girl as looking like. So...here is the picture of what the tech called the "hamburger." We thought that was funny. Either way, from the top pic, we are going to be having an alien child. From the bottom...the tech was pretty sure it was a girl, but not 100%. I guess her term gives a whole new spin on the term "where's the beef." :)



































Friday, September 25, 2009

Is forgiveness important?

I am currently reading a book called "The Road Best Traveled" by Ray Pritchard. The chapter that I just read was called "Trapped on a Dead-end Street." It was all about the things that we do in our lives that make us feel trapped. It uses the story of the Prodigal Son from the Bible to illistrate the different ways that we can end up out of God's will and thus trapped by sin. For those of you who don't know that story...here it is.

http://www.biblestudytools.com/OnlineStudyBible/bible.cgi?passage=lu+15&version=niv&showtools=0

The story begins with verse 11, but I included the whole chapter so you could see the context.

Anyway, I think the message here is that both sons were outside of God's will. In the beginning, the son who left was selfish, wanted to do what he wanted to do, and didn't care how his actions affected others. The older son stayed behind and did all the work and continually helped his father. When the younger son came home, the older one was vengeful and felt that his father should not forgive the younger son for everything that he did. The father, however, was so excited to have the younger son home after he had been gone for so long that he threw a party to celebrate and honored the younger son. The younger son had realized how much he had hurt his father and felt he was not worthy to be his son anymore. The father didn't think that at all. He have him a robe, a signet ring, cooked the best calf, and restored him to his place of honor. He was just happy to have him home. The father represents God and how as soon as we decide that we have been traveling down the wrong path... He welcomes us home.

So, back to the book. I thought it was interesting how the author pointed out how much God loves us. 1) He loves us enough to let us go. 2) He loves us enough to let us hit rock bottom. 3) He loves us enough to let us come back. 4) He loves us so much that he will run to meet us. (p 168)

On a side note...I have heard so many people talk about how if God was real, he wouldn't let all the bad things happen in the world. Logically, that just doesn't add up. When you teach your child to ride a bike, it is natural to hold on to the back of the seat so they don't fall over, but at some point you have to let go and hope that when they fall it isn't too hard. Otherwise, they never learn how to ride for themselves.

Ok, so back to the original story. On to the older son. His being outside of God's will has to do with unforgiveness. This is an area that I have struggled with for a good amount of my life. I have held onto anger and resentments that ate at me for years. Since getting to know God, I have had several breakthroughs in this area that have taught me some very valuable lessons.

First, for many years, I was very angry with my step dad. I had grown up wanting to feel worth something to him. As a kid, he said many things to me that were devaluing. I always seemed to feel that I didn't measure up and wasn't good enough in his eyes. I was a pretty chunky kid and I think in his attempt to try to make me change he made a lot of comments about that. So, when I was 19, he and I had a pretty big fight. I told him things that I always wanted to tell him and it lifted a huge weight off my chest. It seemed that our relationship got a lot better after that. Around the same time, I lost a large amount of weight. Then...over the next few years, my mom and him separated, our whole family kind of fell apart and I ended up meeting my ex and moved to Washington state. I continued to talk to him pretty regularly until he met someone new who he wanted to marry. When it came time for my wedding, I made a special call to him to tell him about a low cost flight so that he could come to the wedding. He said that he couldn't come because he didn't have the money. I knew that this wasn't true. It hurt me so bad that I never talked to him again. Several years later I got the call that he was in the hospital with cancer and I instantly didn't feel angry with him anymore and wanted to go see him. He died before I could get there. In the end, I didn't have the need to be valued by him anymore. I only wanted him to know that I loved him and forgave him. I understood that there were things that he was just unable to do because of who he was. I couldn't change him.

Then, there was my mom's fiance. I was extremely angry with him for several years after my mom died. For the first couple of years, it ate at me and the thought of seeing him somewhere was almost scary to me. Then I decided in my mind that I was going to forgive him because it was too hard on me to carry that burden. It wasn't real forgiveness though because every once in a while the anger would still creep in. Then, earlier this year, I was planning a trip to Phoenix. While taking a bath one night I felt like God was talking to me. He said that when I go to Phoenix, I need to visit John and extend forgiveness to him in person. I was instantly scared. I didn't want to do it. I didn't know what would happen or if I would be able to do it. So, I just dismissed the thought. On a Monday night while in Phoenix, I was driving back from my dad's house. I was getting ready to come up to the freeway exit that would lead me to my mom's fiance's house. I again felt God was telling me that now was the time to go to him and apologize for my part in the situation that had happened between us after my mom died and forgive him for his part. So I reluctantly went as my heart was racing. I pulled up and prayed, "God, please help me to do your will and keep me safe." I also called Robert and let him know where I was and what I was doing. He was a little worried too, but I told him that I felt God was telling me to do it and that I would be disobeying if I didn't. So I went to the door and knocked. He answered and looked somewhat surprised and said "hi, come on in, you're not going to yell at me are you?" I said, "no, I'm not going to yell." So I went in and we chatted with his new girlfriend for a few minutes. I then told him that I had come for a reason and that I wanted to talk to him about something. We went and sat down in the living room and I told him that I was sorry for my part in the issue that we had five years earlier. That I was more concerned with things than I was with him as a person and that I didn't take the time to consider how much pain he was in at the loss of my mom. I said that I knew that we were both under a tremendous amount of stress and suffering at the time and were not in our right minds. He then apologized to me for his part in everything and told me that if there was anything else that I wanted of my mom's that he would gladly give it to me. I didn't want anything.

The funny thing about that last situation was that Robert and I have been trying to conceive for years with no luck. The month I got home from that trip, I found out I was pregnant. I really believe that God was blessing me for being faithful to Him. That doesn't mean that if something were to happen to this child that it would be a curse. To me, just being pregnant is a blessing. I believed for many years that I would not concieve because I couldn't get pregnant. So, knowing that I can is a blessing in itself. Having the child will be a double blessing. Yes, I would be really sad if something were to happen and I hope I am past the point where something will, but I have learned that suffering and pain bring us closer to God. He shows his love the most when we need him. I pray for many wonderful years with our child, but ultimately everything happens in God's time. The good thing is that I can now say that I have no resentments that I am holding onto with anyone. God has really helped me work through that. I feel amazingly free. Thank God!

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

Why?

Many people think that God should have His place. That He shouldn't be included in anything having to do with government. That He shouldn't be in schools or political arenas. I don't agree. I don't think that God in schools needs to be religious services forced on students, but I do think that a case should be made showing the evidence of His existence to students. I also think that being that the Bible is the oldest book in existence and is the only book throughout history that has consistently been burned and had threat of destruction (yet somehow there are still several original manuscripts in existence), that it should be treated as an amazing piece of literature. The other interesting thing about it as a book is that it was written over a span of 1500 years by several different authors, yet it is surprisingly consistent in its message. There is not another book like it. Discounting its literary value is tragic, yet it is done all the time because people say its is a religious book. Well...it is also a history book. A few years back, I wrote this paper for my English 102 class. It explains why I believe it is important for schools to teach intelligent design. See what you think...

Imagine coming home to find your favorite dog lying dead in your backyard, blood running down one side of his head from what appears to be a bullet wound. So, you report it to the police and after one glace the officer tells you, “Maam, it looks like your dog died of natural causes…we have nothing left to investigate.” How would you feel? Confused, let down, baffled by what looks like obvious negligence on the part of the local police department? Would you fight the officer and ask him to explain why he wouldn’t investigate further, when there was an obvious outside cause for the death of your best friend? That is where a lot of Americans are today: confused, let down, and baffled by scientist’s obvious refusal to look at the facts regarding our origin of life. They seem to have a one-sided approach to their research and anything that falls outside the realm of what “they” deem acceptable research is sidestepped or fallaciously scoffed at.
For many scientists, evolution is the be all and end all of biological science. They hold it closely and lash out at anyone who asks questions that might take away from the validity of their precious viewpoints. This isn’t to say that they are completely wrong, but it is to say that when theories are placed so high up on a pedestal it makes them very difficult to analyze against other theories. This has also made it difficult for students in our current school system to learn anything outside of this box of what is appropriate and what is not. It places the scientific academic standard up there on that same pedestal. So the question then is, “what can we do about it?” Well, if we were to teach a valid evolutionary curriculum, while also including intelligent design and other legitimate scientific theories, we would enable our students to fully understand the complete realm of biological science as it is known today.
Continuing to teach evolution in our school system is not a negative thing. There are, however, some changes that need to be made to the textbooks in order for them to hold up to current scientific evidence. For example, there is the theory that all human life was created in what is known as the “primordial soup,” which basically means that amino acids were able to be synthesized by passing an electric spark through methane gas and thus creating the proteins needed to create life (Geisler 63). Many evolutionists still force-feed us this as if it were true, but there has been absolutely no scientific evidence supporting it. In fact, in order for life to be created in this fashion, 2000 different enzymes made out of amino acids would have had to come together by chance to make up the 10 to 20 amino acids needed to make up the proteins needed to create life. The odds of this happening are 1 to the 40,000th power. In English, that is a 10 with 40,000 zero’s following it. In science, anything with odds of 1 to the 50th power or higher is impossible. At this point, we still don’t have life; we just have the proteins needed to make life (Geisler 64). If by some chance this did happen it would be similar to saying the earth forms the sand and elements needed to make glass and metal, which are used to make a wrist watch. So, over time, through random selection and chance, a watch was formed. We know this is not true and we can look at the watch and see that it was made by someone to perform a certain function. It would have never come together on its own and been able to work in the precise way that it does.
There is also a problem when we look at the Second Law of Thermodynamics, which basically says that the organization of something left alone will decrease over time, not increase. If two systems are placed together, the two will even out. A good example of this would be heat transfer. If you put a cup of water outside in the sun the water’s temperature will rise, but not become hotter than the air surrounding it. Additionally, if you pour cold water in a cup of hot water, the water will decrease in temperature, not increase. This basically means that in order for abiogenesis (the theory that all life formed from non-life) to occur, some outside system had to add something to the mix; because if left alone, life would not become more organized over time it would become less so (“Abiogenesis” 2). So, if this theory is to continue to be taught in schools it should be known to students that it is unproven.
However, lower levels of evolution have been proven through mutations and slight variations. Examples of this would be the change in beak structure of a bird, wing structure of a fly, or coloration variations in moths. These changes don’t affect the species as a whole, but do prove that genetic mutation is possible. Science has also found many fossils that suggest changes over time. There are fossil records of species that are no longer on earth that resemble species that are still here (Wieland 2). Science can speculate as to the relationship between the two based on the fossil evidence, but they cannot be absolutely certain. The fossil evidence is still compelling evidence for the theory of evolution. It does not, however, point to the original hypothesis that Charles Darwin had when he wrote Origin of the Species where he indicated that all creatures came from the same ancestors, but it does advocate for lower level evolutionary changes. These ideas should continue to be taught in schools because there is valid research and documented findings.
Intelligent design (ID) is also a valid theory that should be taught to our students. There are many theories inside the theory, but ultimately ID advocates believe that the complexity found in all living organisms is too great to have been caused by random selection and genetic drift. In addition, ID advocates believe that the origin of the universe and ultimately Earth had to have been caused by an outside agent or intelligence. In the past century, there has been a lot of light shed on this topic in the scientific community. In the 1920’s, William Hubble documented evidence that showed that while on its way to earth, light stretched, which pointed towards an expanding universe. Then in the 1960’s microwave background radiation was discovered, which set the Big Bang theory as the standard for the evolution of the universe and concluded that the universe had a beginning (Witt 3). It is important then to study what caused that beginning. Since we know that it would have been nearly impossible for it to happen as described by the Darwinian model of evolution, we must ask ourselves how the universe came to be? This question remains unanswered, but intelligent design is one very valid theory.
We can look at the different organisms that are here on earth to see if we can recognize intelligent design among them. One way to do this is to evaluate them between two theories of complexity, irreducible complexity and cumulative complexity. Irreducible complexity means that something is complex in that all of the elements that make it up are necessary in order for it to function. A good example of this would be a mousetrap. The hammer, spring, holding bar, catch, and platform are all needed in order for it to function. If one item is removed, it fails to perform the function it was designed to perform. Cumulative complexity means that something is complex, but any of the items that make it up could be removed and it would still function. A city would be a good example of this because if you continued to reduce its resources and people, it would still function as a community. So, if we test this theory with a simple organism such as a bacterial flagellum we would see that it contains many elements, including a whip-like motor with an acid-powered rotary engine, a stator, O-rings, bushings, and a drive shaft; included in this are 15 proteins, all of which are needed in order to function. Natural selection would only work in a cumulatively complex system, not an irreducibly complex one. Irreducibly complex systems indicate design (Dembski 8).
Still, some people believe that bringing intelligent design into the school system is just an attempt by Creationists to reintroduce religion. While it may be true that there are similarities between the two, one big difference is that creationism states that God created the heavens and the earth while intelligent design says that the earth was created, but we do not know by whom or what. Creationists are happy to embrace intelligent design because it doesn’t conflict with their beliefs, but it also doesn’t conflict with the beliefs of over 90% of the people in the United States. According to a general study in 1998, only 8.3% of Americans either don’t believe in a higher power, don’t know, or feel that there is no way to find out. Everyone else has some form of belief in something greater than they are (Utter 128). In a personal interview, Duane Cross, pastor of Hope Covenant Church put it this way, “it seems as if schools have jumped on the concept (intelligent design vs. evolution) only recently, but it is building. The more scientists discredit evolution, the more embolden Christian educators become. The doubts (evolution) and the belief (creationism) have always been there, but science itself is stirring the pot and is asking, ‘if not evolution, then what’ Christians are more than happy to raise their hands and say, ‘Teacher, I know the answer to that question.’”
Truthfully, the science of intelligent design is being completely overlooked because of the prejudices against Creationists. In part, this could be because there is generally a huge misunderstanding of what creationism really is. First off, “many people assume that Creationists are non-thinkers and anti-intellectual. Part of this is their fault for not engaging intellectually, but part is the assumption on the other side that they function only on blind faith” (Cross). The media exacerbates this misunderstanding because most of them still think that Creationists all believe in the basic 6000-year-old world with a 6-day creation. While some Creationists do hold this belief, it is far from the majority. There are many that don’t dispute scientist’s claims of an older Earth. In the English Standard Version of Genesis, God created the heavens and the earth all within the six days as stated by many, but then it goes on to say in Genesis 2:4, “These are the generations of the heavens and the earth when they were created, in the day that the Lord God made the earth and the heavens” (ESV). As you can see, it uses the same word “day” in both the single days used for creation and the plural form encompassing the total time when everything was created. Also, in this section of the Bible, God created days one through three before He even created the sun, moon, or stars. So our day would not have been created yet and thus the meaning of “day” is completely up to interpretation. Day one could have been the 24-hour period that we usually think a day to mean or it could have been meant as a span of time. This flexibility in Genesis allows for evolution. The part of the theory that is really in question and has continued to stump evolutionists is the part that says you cannot create life from non-life (Cross). So the controversy between Creationists and Evolutionists strictly lies in how we came to be.
Intelligent design says that the earth was created by something or someone more intelligent than we are. It doesn’t discount genetic drift or species mutations offered by evolution, but it does take into account the appearance of design that is apparent in scientific research. Many scientists admit to the appearance of design and even say that everything is too complex to have come into being otherwise. According to Richard Dawkins, author of The Blind Watchmaker, “Biology is the study of complicated things that give the appearance of having been designed for a purpose” (Dembski 1). Since Evolutionists cannot prove the “primordial soup” theory and Creationists cannot prove the "6000 year-old earth" theory, maybe we can look at where the two meet.
However, many people contend that intelligent design is a new development and thus has not had enough scientific study to be valid. This is not a true statement though. The idea of intelligent design actually goes back to Socrates and Plato, and the term “intelligent design” as an alternative to blind evolution was used as early as 1897. At that time, Oxford scholar F.C.S Schiller wrote an essay in which he stated, “It will not be possible to rule out the supposition that the process of evolution be guided by intelligent design” (Witt 1). So, the debate between design and evolution actually started back then. In the past, science was always about finding truth around design. When Darwin first introduced his theories of evolution, his biggest adversaries were the official scientific establishment, while many of his supporters were clergymen (Midgely 23).
By teaching both evolution and intelligent design in schools we could promote scholarship without compromising people’s belief systems, or lack there of. As stated before, for the most part, people believe in something greater then themselves. A survey done by CBS in November of 2004 showed that 65% of all Americans favor the teaching of creation along with evolution (CBS 1). While intelligent design differs from creation in the sense that it does not ascribe the “who” of creation, it is clear that American’s want more information, not less. This could be accomplished by introducing additional text into the classrooms and allowing teachers to discuss differing theories around the issue. By allowing students and teachers to discuss the theories and controversies openly, we would enable them to actively learn and understand the whole scope of the issue. Students would be able to view it from all perspectives instead of the prescribed one. The only costs involved in the change would be in editing textbooks to include more information. Such a small cost would definitely be worth it since it would promote open discussion and active learning in our science classes. It would also require students to look at the theories themselves and make decisions based on the evidence presented.
Intelligent design seeks to explain a part of science that evolution has failed in explaining. That’s it. That’s where design ends. It explains the beginning. The thousands, millions, or billions of years that have passed since then are completely up to evolution to sort out. We can look at evolution and see what doesn’t make since, but we can also see what does. We can’t discount hundreds of years of scientific research on either side. As stated earlier, there are many things that science has unsuccessfully tried to prove with regards to evolution. Until these theories have some good evidence to support them, intelligent design is the most probable answer for the origin of species. Evolution and other scientific theories can then explain the remaining elements by filling in the gaps of history with documented evidence found thus far. This would give students a fuller understanding of science, life on this planet, and the history of earth, while also showing them that it is all still a learning process. Scientists have spent many years studying species, making claims, reevaluating hypotheses, and then making new claims. The age of the earth is continually changing. One scientist will claim to have found something that proves the earth is billions of years older than originally thought and then another will review that data and refute it. So, through these many years, one of the biggest truths discovered is how very little we all know. Science is ever changing, always learning, just as we are. A truth that is discovered today will be discarded tomorrow. Once we can get past the religious concepts of evolution and the prejudices against the ideas of intelligent design, our students can begin to really learn what science is about, the search for truth. The two adversaries, intelligent design and evolution, can co-exist and even help each other to discover new scientific truths in the future.


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Monday, September 14, 2009

Baby news!

Well...we are into week 14 and get to have an ultrasound in 2 more weeks. I am seriously looking pregnant now. What a blessing!

Something interesting...

I decided tonight, that since I am spending a decent amount of time reading the bible lately, that I should try to begin to memorize some of it. I started with the beginning. In doing this, I came across something that struck me as interesting. I have seen this before and wondered about it, but my dinner conversation tonight with our boys made me think a little more about it. We were talking about God and how he is also Jesus and the Holy Spirit. That they are one. I explained to them that they can kind of relate it to ourselves in that we are a body, mind, and spirit. That these are all part of the whole, but are still separate. That after we die, our spirit is still alive, but our body dies. So then, later this evening, I started reading Genesis and it was odd how it made me understand the trinity a little more without even talking about it. So, Genesis begins with:

1 In the beginning God created the heavens and the earth. 2 Now the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters.

Here, it says the earth was formless and empty. Yet, the earth as we know it is a round planet orbiting in space. So anyway, Genesis continues with:

3 And God said, "Let there be light," and there was light. 4 God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. 5 God called the light "day," and the darkness he called "night." And there was evening, and there was morning--the first day.

Now this is very interesting because it doesn't say that God created the Sun, the moon, and the stars and there was light. It only says that He created light and separated it from the darkness. Yet, somehow, there was evening and morning which equaled the first day. You may say that whoever wrote Genesis just left that part out, but wait...lets look ahead to day 4.

14 And God said, "Let there be lights in the expanse of the sky to separate the day from the night, and let them serve as signs to mark seasons and days and years, 15 and let them be lights in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth." And it was so. 16 God made two great lights--the greater light to govern the day and the lesser light to govern the night. He also made the stars. 17 God set them in the expanse of the sky to give light on the earth, 18 to govern the day and the night, and to separate light from darkness. And God saw that it was good. 19 And there was evening, and there was morning--the fourth day.

So, we have two whole days devoted to creating light. The first is just the light...the second is the explaination for the light. Notice that, there was evening and there was morning on day two just as there was on day four. There was, however, no sun on day two to rise in the morning to show that it was morning. Yet, it was still morning. Alright, I hope you are following me here. Now...lets go back to that earth thing. Here is a little more of the Genesis poem in action:

6 And God said, "Let there be an expanse between the waters to separate water from water." 7 So God made the expanse and separated the water under the expanse from the water above it. And it was so. 8 God called the expanse "sky." And there was evening, and there was morning--the second day.
9 And God said, "Let the water under the sky be gathered to one place, and let dry ground appear." And it was so. 10 God called the dry ground "land," and the gathered waters he called "seas." And God saw that it was good. 11 Then God said, "Let the land produce vegetation: seed-bearing plants and trees on the land that bear fruit with seed in it, according to their various kinds." And it was so. 12 The land produced vegetation: plants bearing seed according to their kinds and trees bearing fruit with seed in it according to their kinds. And God saw that it was good. 13 And there was evening, and there was morning--the third day.

So, days 2-3 are devoted to giving form to the earth, yet there was still earth on day one before what we would define earth as existed. This is a great explaination of how God is outside of our rules. He created the rules. So, the question of how can God be God, man, and spirit all at the same time is easily answered when you see that this same being can create light without a source, the earth without a form, evening and morning without anything to differentiate them, and thousands of lifeforms with a few words. When you aren't playing Monopoly, do you still pass Go and collect $200? No...those are the rules for Monopoly. Just because a certain rule applies to life for us, doesn't mean that it applies to Him. He is outside of time, He sees all things, He knows all things, He made all things.

1Co 2:11
For who among men knows the thoughts of a man except the man's spirit within him? In the same way no one knows the thoughts of God except the Spirit of God.

Isa 55:8
"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, neither are your ways my ways," declares the Lord.

Job 11:7-9
7 "Can you fathom the mysteries of God? Can you probe the limits of the Almighty? 8 They are higher than the heavens--what can you do? They are deeper than the depths of the grave--what can you know? 9 Their measure is longer than the earth and wider than the sea.